On December 1st, Putuoshan Branch of Zhoushan Public Security Bureau of Zhejiang Province issued a notice: At 7 o’clock in the morning, the body of a man was found in the sea near Dongsha, Zhujiajian Island. After identification by family members, the body belongs to Weibo blogger Zhou (26-year-old from Guizhou) whose online name is "Lu Daosen" who lost contact recently. The police ruled out homicide.
Previously, at 23: 28 on November 28, a suicide note of "Lu Dawson" was released regularly on the online social platform. Suspected suicidal tendency, causing network concern.
↑ The suicide note of the blogger "Lu Dawson".
From the loss of contact to the confirmation of his death, "Lu Daosen" has also caused extensive discussions on issues such as school violence and family education mentioned in his suicide note.
Before his death, he returned the rent and mailed his luggage.
The social platform of "Lu Dawson" not only analyzes the content related to photography, but also publishes some words to record his mood and life.
It can be known from his published texts that he is an art student from a village in Guiyang. Because he failed in the college entrance examination, his score did not reach the two scores in Guizhou that year, so he had to go to a three-university to study the indoor direction of environmental design. He didn’t even know what this major was for at first.
He once said that his ideal major has always been fashion design, and he "wants to be a designer like alexander mcqueen". He didn’t like his school and major, so his college life once made him unhappy. "I had white hair when I was a freshman, and the pressure from home was great." But after all, he left family of origin, which made him "fragile" and "injured". He worked hard to earn money part-time and tried to get rid of his parents economically.
From the next semester of junior year, he came into contact with photography, and "he gradually became clear about what kind of person he was going to be". In recording "the rustling sound of summer wind blowing through leaves" and "the sunset falling in the evening" and "the bright Milky Way starry sky at night", he felt unprecedented freedom and relaxation. "It was the enthusiasm caused by the collision of magma."
↑ Reflections on Photography by Lu Dawson in Weibo.
In 2018, he started his own business, opened a photography studio in Guiyang, then traveled to Shanghai, Guangzhou, Chengdu and other places to shoot, and finally lived in Hangzhou.
When "Lu Dawson" just entered the business, Ms. Lin, who is also a photographer, knew him. Ms. Lin said that in her impression, "Lu Dawson" is an optimistic person, but he has encountered many setbacks in his life. His personal works are excellent, but they have never been realized.
↑ In the eyes of some friends, "Lu Dawson" is sunny and positive, and does not emit negative energy.
A few days before "Lu Dawson" lost contact, he sent his luggage home and returned the rent. He posted the suicide note on the Internet regularly. After seeing the suicide note, his friend couldn’t contact "Lu Dawson" and called the police.
At 7 o’clock in the morning on November 29th, a villager found the grey trench coat and mobile phone of "Lu Dawson" on the beach reef on the south side of Niunitang Mountain in Zhujiajian Island. On December 1st, rescuers confirmed that Lu Dawson’s body was salvaged ashore that morning, but he died unfortunately.
When I was young, I worked with my parents in Guangdong.
Forced by life, he was sent to Guiyang for the elderly to raise.
Ms. Wu (pseudonym), who is a cousin of "Lu Dawson", can sleep at 10 o’clock on weekdays. After receiving the news of "Lu Dawson’s death", she can’t sleep. It’s past zero, and she’s still paying attention to the news reports related to "Lu Dawson".
Ms. Wu is very sad about the one-sided interpretation and criticism of "Lu Dawson" parents in those reports. "No parents don’t love their children, but they care about their children in different ways." Ms. Wu expressed the hope that everyone would not speculate and report unrealistically, nor would they want to slander his parents and make his family more sad.
In Ms. Wu’s impression, "Lu Daosen" was obedient and sensible from childhood. Every time he went home for the New Year, he would often visit his grandfather and give money to the elderly.
Lu Daosen’s hometown is located in Guiyang. According to Ms. Wu, in order to make their children live better, Lu Daosen’s parents chose to work in Guangdong. "Working is the only way to earn money. Without culture, you are a migrant worker. No one wants to be separated from their children, but don’t many families do?"
↑ "Lu Dawson" once asked himself in Weibo, "Can people who grow up among thorns practice indestructible body?"
Therefore, "Lu Daosen" went to kindergarten with his parents in Guangdong when he was a child, and returned to Guiyang after he was older and was raised by his grandmother. "People say that every generation, his grandmother is nearly ninety years old, and she has been hiding it before. After knowing it today, grandma is very sad."
Regarding the school violence mentioned in the suicide note of "Lu Dawson", Ms. Wu said that he was clever and polite since childhood and was very likable. But I never said anything about school when I went home. "I didn’t say anything about being bullied at school, and my family didn’t know."
In Ms. Wu’s view, the reason why "Lu Dawson" chose to leave may be the pressure of work. At the beginning, "Lu Dawson" chose to start a business with her parents, because Ms. Wu herself was engaged in the photography industry and knew that the pressure in this industry was relatively high. "So I can understand him, open my own studio, and the pressure of work can sometimes make people breathless. As long as people are under pressure, whether they are working or studying, we are used to it, so for these children, we need to know more."
Regarding the departure of "Lu Dawson", Ms. Wu said: "I really hope this is a dream, not true."
Students call their class price conscience.
I shared photographic materials in the group on the night of the incident.
My friend Xiao He described "Lu Dawson" as "a talent without talent". As a photographer, Xiao He has been quietly paying attention to the works of "Lu Dawson" and admiring his imagination. "Before he closed the photography studio and planned to find a job, I talked to him once, and then he went to Hangzhou to continue to be a photographer. A photographer should have his own style. He first learned from his teacher ‘ Wei Lan ’ The strong color of photography, and later added ‘ Xia Qiji ’ The ancient style of myth finally formed his own fantasy myth theme. "
Xiao He said that after the accident of "Lu Dawson", she added a student who signed up for the photography class of "Lu Dawson" from the group of "looking for Dawson", only to know that the price of his course was so "conscience". "I thought that he was a blogger with 100,000 fans, and his works were very good, and his classes would be very expensive, so he would have a good life. I didn’t expect that his series of courses were only 899 yuan."
↑ Photographic works of "Lu Dawson"
Wu, a student of the "Ludaosen" photography class, said that on the evening of 23rd, the teacher "Ludaosen" had distributed Baidu web photography materials to the students. "I thought he wanted to give us some ‘ Welfare ’ After that, he went to retouch the picture. He used to talk about it in the middle of the night. "
According to the track of "Lu Daosen" compiled by Lu Daosen’s friends "Meng Li" and "Wei Lan" in November, after the 22 nd "Lu Daosen" withdrew from his residence in Hangzhou, the 23 rd and 24 th "Lu Daosen" all participated in the group chat and arrived in Zhoushan on the 25 th.
↑ The photography course of "Lu Dawson".
"I know that he is introverted, so I generally don’t dare to disturb him. Except when I encounter problems, he is a teacher and friend to us. He talked for 4 hours in a fantasy class until 1 o’clock in the middle of the night. We are all very touched. The price of this class is too valuable. Once I was sick in the middle of the night and went to the hospital, he saw my circle of friends and sent me a message to care about me, telling me ‘ Don’t always stay up all night, health is the most important thing ’ 。” Wu said.
Wu thinks that "Lu Dawson" is a very responsible and gentle teacher, but as students, they also know that the teacher is not doing very well. "Compared with other photographers, his guest list is not many, and the public can’t accept his illusion, and even some seemingly commercial shots are actually ‘ Power generation for love ’ Yes, but we all see his efforts and Excellence, and we can’t figure out why no one noticed him. "
The last chat was about creative inspiration.
Friends want to publish works for them.
In the eyes of friends in the photography circle of "Lu Dawson", he is a photographer with sunshine, dreams, imagination and creativity. He has his own ideas about his works, and he will not simply imitate others, but always look for self-breakthrough.
"He usually comforts and cares more about his friends and helps us solve difficulties." Photographer A Ke recalled "Lu Dawson". He almost never gave off negative energy, but he was always positive, so friends around him didn’t know his bad experiences until he saw the last farewell letter.
↑ A small wish of "Lu Dawson" before his death: publishing a series of works of illusion.
The last time Ako chatted with him was on the 21st, when "Lu Dawson" patiently listened to him about the inspiration of shooting creation, but he didn’t expect that chat to be the last goodbye.
A Ke didn’t notice anything unusual when chatting that night. In addition, there was no sudden change in color or style in the photos recently sent by "Lu Dawson", so the photographers around him were puzzled by the unexpected departure of "Lu Dawson". Referring to the departure of "Lu Dawson", A Ke thinks that the pressure of starting a business may not be the main reason, but more because of school bullying’s bad experiences in childhood.
"Lu Dawson" once wrote to Weibo on August 23rd: "A small wish: if only the Phantom Series could be published". Now, the photographers of "Lu Dawson" hope to fulfill his last wish besides facing the fact that their friends have left.
Ake said that the photographers are docking with the publishing house and preparing to publish the illusion series. "We hope to spread his works and stories to more people, and finally the theme we want to present to the public is: hope and courage."
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